I think I’m just going to treat this as a journal. I would just like to have a conversation with myself and maybe anyone who wants to listen.
Love & Pain, I believe, are the only two things in life that truly make us feel. Sure there’s things you could put under each umbrella, like happiness and sadness. When were sad, were hurting. It may not be a physical pain, but damn if it don’t hurt like it.
I think this video was made to show the different things that compile your life. Spirituality/Purpose, Adolescence/Innocence, and Connection/Intimacy. Somehow I think every one thing in your life boils down to something to do with one of these three. So in a sense, this is your world. A constant battle or intersection of these things. You try to find where you fit into these thoughts or ideas. You try to find if any of these things have to do with you at all in the first place.
Spirituality is like this dark over seer in life. It’s super important and thats why you feel like the, for lack of a better word, spiritual knights we see in the video are watching over everything else thats happening. To someone else it would maybe seem sinister or shady, in a way. But in a way, I think that is because your spirituality is taken so serious in life. That even the most innocent of things is looked upon by it and judged.
Adolescence is more of trying to find its place in this world you’ve made. I feel like the older I get, the more I realize how nice the ignorance/innocence of adolescence really was. Sometimes it gets lost in this world.
Intimacy/Connection is the most appealing thing of this world at the start, but as you progress it gets lost. I think I equate this to still being on your journey of life and trying to understand where you stand. I feel like to truly understand and give your all to intimacy, you must find yourself through all the other bullshit. I want nothing more then to be in love with someone who truly knows who I am. Even if I don’t know who I am sometimes.
So in the end what you truly know is that you don’t know shit. Of course that will never stop you from trying to figure it all out. Isn’t that the beautiful thing? That you can never know it all and there is always something new you can learn from yourself and others.
The only constant in your life is yourself. You just have to get to know that person.
"Love & Pain comes and goes, but I won’t change. No."